musings - madly emotional

No desire to hit the Vancouver night life, not stoked on the climbing gyms. They just don't have the same feel as the gyms back east.

Trying to picture myself commuting downtown from the Annex, or parkdale. High park or the college/ossington area are both cool but pretty far.

I loved cabbagetown when I lived there, but i left an Ex there who may not appreciate having me back in the neighbourhood!

Queen/Leslie was up and coming at the time as well. Too close to the railroad tracks? i could actually save towards buying a house!

I am already manifesting signs of stress: clenching my jaw and biting my fingernails. arrrgh!

Musings - the methodical & logical approach

Musings about a return to Toronto. I need to figure out what I was expecting when I moved to Vancouver, and define my expectations

I follow my gut feeling, and my gut wants to live in Toronto.

Being a Project Manager, I have a very methodical approach to decision making. I need to define the goals and expectations for moving my life back to Toronto, and then dive into risk identification. What could possibly go wrong? Project selection mode, is this a project I am willing to undertake? What's the ROI?

After three years, I can admit that life in Vancouver is not the big dream I had imagined. I am cautious not to assign a Big Dream to life in Toronto - gotta be realistic.

Mildly scared of the "giving up" nature of leaving the west coast. Since I've started entertaining the idea of moving back, I look at Vancouver with disdain for the imperfect things, and with sadness at the things I've grown to love.

I love my apartment. I wake up and see snow covered mountains. It's great to have my own space though I know I can be happy in my own space wherever I go now. I don't want to take this for granted.

I expect to be using this blog to try to make sense of the spinning thoughts towards the decision to leave home to go home.